When we trust others, we count on them.
When we count what we have, or count time, we trust that we have enough.
Both of these can be challenging. It’s hard to trust people, and truly count on them. It’s hard to trust that we truly have enough of what we need, and that we will continue to have it.
And it can be just as challenging to count on ourselves. To trust that we will be able to do all of the tasks that we count on our to do list. A list that (at least for me) never seems to get shorter.
We look at the world, and it can be difficult to trust that everything will be ok–violence, hurricanes, illness…we see these things and we struggle with considering that we can trust in the universe. Even when we see that people who help others–who do extraordinary acts to counter difficulty–it’s hard to imagine that we can count enough people out there to make up for the destruction.
For those of us who struggle with God–who have trouble believing, who have trouble with faith, who have trouble with ideas that are counter to rational thought–it is a struggle to trust that there is anything we can count on.
And yet, we persist. We learn to trust ourselves. We learn to count the patterns of nature and rely on the fact that they mean that the universe will continue. We learn to have trust in the idea that good is stronger than evil, and that the good that is within any of us will be the stronger force for most of us.
And, at this season, we count our days and we count our own acts and we place them in trust. So that when we need to count on ourselves, we will, ourselves, act.